Permanent Ban appeal for Ame33. (Im using a different account now)

[SomethingorOther]

Your Name: Somethingorother (Account being appealed is Ame33)

SteamID (STEAM_0:X:XXX):  STEAM_0:0:464099 (Ame33)

Appeal Type (Apology or Dispute):  Apology

Which staff member banned you?:  Daepicgoose

How long is your ban for?:  Forever (Second perma ban ive gotten)

Why were you banned?:  MRDM | NITRP | Pos |

Why do you deserve to be unbanned?:  I was permad on prom for the second time about 9 months ago now and in that time ive been "put through the ringer" so to speak when it comes to germany rp. Any engaging rp I attempted to create or  take part in  with any position I managed to acquire has always been overshadowed by bad actors who almost always enacted their will through non-rp means which in the end wastes everyone who is within that communities time.  Or if there was any sort of "rp" it was nearly entirely heavily metagamed beforehand by whoever is in the GAs inner circle. I will not be making any direct allegations but everyone knows that peoples personal information have been shared in certain germany rp circles and there have been times where ive felt mildly unsafe simply because somebody has decided to turn their scorn to me or someone ive been related to because of some petty  dispute usually over something extremely autistic. All of these things combined have made me really appreciate the security that prom provides and the degeneracy that it actively strays away from. To my knowledge there has never been an incident of that nature on prom and if there ever has been I imagine it has been swiftly  dealt with by the administration.  I have been playing prom before it was censored due to Garys beliefs but I never truly understood how far above it stood in terms of professionalism and moderation until I started heavily joining other germany rp communites.  Anyway, none of this has directly addressed my actions ingame just my aftermath experiences that made me realise how much better things are on prom.  I dont remember what exactly I did to get my second permaban but I imagine that it was something similar to my first permaban, then my 2 and half month ban which is more likely then not me kidnapping high ranking people and then shooting them. I do honestly regret doing these things not only because as all larpers know minges are annoying as hell to deal with but also because I realise now that I was "shitting where I eat" in a manner of speaking and all for some dumb low brow e-thrill that doesnt really end up accomplishing very much. Ive been larping since 2021ish so I actually DO know how to rp properly and I have done so in some pretty high ranking positions on prom in the past. This has just been me acting like a fool on a server that has given me 10x more enjoyment then any other germany rp server ive played combined. I understand that these words might not be very convincing especially with my prior perma and that extremely lengthy ban so im not going to be surprised if this appeal gets rejected but I just want it to be known that im genuinely sorry for my past dumbass actions. I lay here prostrate awaiting your judgement. All I wish for now is to have some GENUINE rp so I can have GENUINE fun while not being mired by petty crap that nobody in their right mind should care about and I swear that I shall not knowingly transgress the server rules again if I were  to be unbanned.

Additional Information: I no longer use Ame33 for reasons unrelated to Gmod. I just thought id clarify because I imagine using one account to appeal a ban on another is a little unorthodox.

Edited 40 minutes ago by SomethingorOther
Fixed some grammar