Hello, I am the staff member who PK'd (Permanently Killed) your character. In the clipped above, provided by @Lawson- It shows your character was placed under gunpoint and ordered to stop moving. You failed to listen to the orders while under gunpoint and continued to walk away from them. They took the decision to shoot you for breaking FearRP.
Permanent Kills are an in-character punishment, not something you can just apologize for like a Permanent Ban for example. I do understand that you portray your character as respectful and calm, but you failed to listen to orders while guns were pointed at you, which led to your character's death.
I thank you for making this appeal, and if you do have any questions please make them known.