The lesson to learn here is when NHC call for a ceasefire and recall you back to barracks, you listen.
That is a roleplay order. While you can absolutely refuse orders - unless you have a valid rp reason to shoot someone outside of them being the opposition its RDM at that point, again as your commanders have called for a cease fire invalidating shoot on sight orders.
Also you can not die as one character and come back as a Jr. , II, etc. immediately after being pked.
If you can acknowledge all of this then I have no issue giving you another chance.